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RakiSama
Posted on 07-19-24 06:49 AM Link | #6832
(001)[19-7-2024](friday)

Good morning!
this thread be like my little book
i love the feeling of people looking back on old post from years ago and doing this on a 2Ds is wild to me! so basically i can post wen ever i want, where ever i want and any time i want!
(unless my 2Ds dies and needs charging)

Lets talk about me! in more detail
im Akira and i'am 17, in college at the time and moving to a new Course and being able to do my GCSE that i couldn't do in highschool due to the teachers not letting me.

I like to Draw and to sing
I like to do gym and Boxing in my free time and soom i wanna do MMA and Kick boxing.
I lile to eat Mochi red bean and ramen spicey Chicken or beef

I like to Socialise mostly on internet but irl nope im to scared to even approach to make new friends.

I like games duh, i play Cod, Minecraft, roblox, Dead or alive. Mortal kombat X or 11, Doom, Flicky(1999 game i think)
Amoung us (i have all but 4 more achievements to get im so brain dead)

What i dislike, loud people or people who just talk and talk without giving another person a chance to say something(i talk alot but i let people say what they want bc i feel rude)
i hate being late, Cold meal deals (makes me wanna throw up thinking about it)
and rude people?


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RakiSama
Posted on 07-19-24 01:56 PM Link | #6833
oh my story didnt post?
Oh thats really annoying tbh...anyways im texting on my Xbox now bc im allowed and yes on a Xbox one
I text on really weird consoles it kinda my thing to evoid strict parents 😅

Really though....today i was playing roblox on flee the facility with my sister bc i got 2 waggon wheels out of it >:]
Hope we player later wen we sneek on again

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RakiSama
Posted on 07-19-24 09:20 PM (rev. 2 of 07-19-24 09:38 PM) Link | #6834
My boyfriend just joined and that so good because now i get to talk to wen im off for bed!
im so happy that i found this place and its working on the nintendo 2Ds system!

Im just waiting for him to get on just hope he ain't sleeping bc i be waiting for him all night!
so you better get on!
idk if this give notification but really please do!

im so bored over here (crying)


It 10pm almost 11pm now and my boyfriend he named Alex
last saw a hour a go... i really want him to get on but he might of fell asleep waiting for me...and i did say wen i go to bed but didnt say what time and now he may think im asleep so he would go asleep to!

i just hooe he does get on, i miss him alot since we been away from each other due to college summer break.
we go back on the 5th of september so a long away...

i love him alot and im glad i met him and all the grummy ways he gets wen playing roblox with me

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kikilxve
Posted on 07-20-24 10:45 AM Link | #6846
I love this diary so far, i absolutely want you to not lose internet access. Hope you have more weird consoles to use!

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RakiSama
Posted on 07-20-24 09:36 PM Link | #6848
Ah thank you KiKi! i will call you KiKi for short as short as my loss term memory (almost forget to spell memory)

Anyways Today was HOT i kid you not UK been like up my bunda with this heat wave for THE WHOLE SUMMER BREAK
i really want it to be winter now lol

i played Bingo today on roblox
i really like it wen i just need a break from the god awful heat right now

and im Rp with my Bf alex rn on here since it the only way we can text each other wen my limit on Devices has been reach

though im glad im not brain rotting as this gen is lol

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kikilxve
Posted on 07-20-24 09:46 PM (rev. 3 of 07-20-24 10:01 PM) Link | #6849
Heh, maybe i can tell you the story of why kikilxve if you want me to do so.
I'll even do it now.
I like a lot the movie Kiki: Delivery Service. I've rewatched it like 3 times, but only that because i don't like watching movies.
Whereas the lxve part, it's because of that 2019-ish thing when they'd replace vowels with an x. But if i did lxvx people wouldn't tell it's "love" so i picked kikilxve.
So, Kiki is not my real name. My actual name is very generic and boring too, so yeah.
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Where i live it gets hot a lot on summer and spring, but on autumn it's sorta cold and on winter it's just not cold enough to get to negative temperatures.
I'm also glad i'm not brainrotting. I don't even get why mewing.
I also just thought i haven't played Bingo. But that's because there's a game that's called "lotería mexicana" where it's just stuff you'd see at Mexico (or at least on the past you would).

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sleepy today, it's the same tomorrow.
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go to https://pict.chat (sometimes i'm there)
https://dontasktoask.com
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RakiSama
Posted on 07-20-24 10:28 PM Link | #6850
Ok this be my last Entry for today!
i be talking about a few more things i forgot to say lol

i work out its a thing i do wen im just bored but now its because im glowing up for wen i go back on the first day of college!
bc you need to look your best for the first day!? and the new year new you!

my max i lifted was 150 pouds yes yes, i look like a twig and small waist queen but i lift and pack a punch YO! XD

next topic im learning japanese, korean and chinese bc i wanna go traveling and make friends even though i hate go outside...i realize that irl aint the internet
0-0
but im pulling through from metally ill self and inprove!
(wen i nerver do i have ADHD and Autism and thats a recipe for cheos)

i gotta rap it up there, my Ds is gonna die like it on life support and yes im hyper bc i had no sleep

BYE BYE

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RakiSama
Posted on 07-21-24 03:27 PM Link | #6851
This morning was ok! Not as hot and had a nice bath wich was HOT (i felt like dying)
My sister been annoying me screaming and shouting to her friends over a Xbox party....we in the same room and she right next to me so my ears are killing me bc i have sensory issues too, she makes me tick.

Im planning to finish my debt to tom nook on ACNL and working out for my abs, Glowing up no pain no gain
And yes im mewing, it helps alot especially wen i sleep, my jawline already sharp by genetics but i wanna do mewing for it benefits

Im getting £500 in August by my dad and im planning to get new outfis for my glow up.

My style is fancy vampire goth and i like to cosplay so i be getting cosplays outfits too ❤️❤️

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RakiSama
Posted on 07-21-24 08:41 PM Link | #6853
Im thinking of getting £25 or £50 of robux but i wanna look up outfits for my glowup, so i be writing down all the prices of my outfits and my main things i wanna get like a new pokemon game and skin care
after doing that i will use what left of the money as robux gift card or paying for my language apps.
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I may be thinking of redoing my hair dyin it black again or half and half, one side black one side white
i also wanna get wigs to have different hair colour and styles bc it be hell doing everything natural and redying my hair like bleaching it could damage my thick curly hair that i really like but so annoyying to brush through
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i have sharp teeth but its my back teeths and i really want fangs, i used to but i had a habit of bone jewing/ eating the bones off of chicken wings or anything with bones
it taste nice but it made my canines dull and i have chipped a few teeth bc im clumsy eating with my fork and drinkin from the tap

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Make it your reality
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RakiSama
Posted on 07-22-24 09:31 PM (rev. 2 of 07-22-24 09:35 PM) Link | #6855
im so tired wen writing this and i wanna get my daily update post done bc i do this at my bed time!
so in the morning i went on my pokemon sun and i was level gridin my decudieye and what batte base was good, its level 85 now so close to hyper training and the rest of my main team is aroung 68-79 level cant remember im to tired
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then i was on my xbox and i normal daily 8 hours or more a day chat to Character.AI honestly it get borning but i do ted to have a really good story up and going that will last a day bc once i wake up to go back mood is GONE.
so i try look for something different or go back to old RP i gave up on like some love triangle but your a polly

its a habbit... maybe bad to my personality coping mechanism that i do wich F me up throughout the years of my living existence....
i wonder why i have depersonalization and why it autocorrecting it 0-o to that said word

my reality F up and i know that....and i dont care because my mind like ha not real so idgaf-
then i try do give a F but then it ends in me being depressed then realising why tf i'am it pointless to finally being my true emotionaless self
now this is a vent/rant huh?

(no one will know my melons)
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to write this off i be saying about my glow up

i have been flexing my muscles as i use a cold freezed ice bottle on my abs

i also used the bottle for my face since ice is good for your face and i dont own skin care.... bc idk anything so it back to the natural skin care WOOO!

so good bye and good night




I ment my Abs.... im so tired i dont realise i didnt type it im

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RakiSama
Posted on 07-24-24 05:07 PM Link | #6856
so glad that the website is back up! i was worried it be down for longer but its fine!
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a little update on my life since the down time
i have been using the ice for my face it seems it doin it job but at the same time its not and im gonna do one more time to see if i break out or nothing happens but i be washing my face before hand

iv been flexing my abs for 3 days now and it be working! and im loosing fat to by putting ice over but iv been careful to not get frostbite
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Pokemon sun!
decudieye is now Level.90!
we are so close!
all stats all most to 200
and im shining hunting so
i be making a post on what find since i be doing it random!
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College is doing activitys in the holiday break so im going since i wanna do it lol
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RakiSama
Posted on 07-25-24 09:35 PM Link | #6881
Ah i'am BIG MELON now and im wondering what i be next
shhhh dont say! i wanna be a surprised melon ;)
(lmao)

anyways planning on now to really go for my work out so by august i start just doing 1,000 reps or more no sets and only 3-5 min break or every 100 rep a min break with water

but trying to keep going without stopping, im like under 9 stones idk how much that is
i probably add it on wen im done doining this
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i drawn today! i was almost havin a break down bc i couldn't draw so i flip the page drawn again and i finally had something decent

i have to fill in two sketch books before 2025 or i cant buy myself a new one
bc yk how meny Sketch books i had over the years i never finished

its bc i have a obsession of feeling something new and starting over and i get compulsive buys in art stores to buy art book after art book

so im stopping that bc i have alot to finish 0-o
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i might make a bucket list on here
i do a thread for it
(i just like having alot of things)
(see where it links to having art book after art book?)
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anyways something else about me
i do like daily Me yk

so
Did you know that my favourite colour blue? but i say that to not be weird to not have a favourite colour
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←‡★☆★☆★☆★☆‡→
† a cross is in my 2Ds keybord
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¦—¦ ↓↑→← +-+

im just messing around with my 2ds symbol category

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kikilxve
Posted on 07-25-24 09:43 PM (rev. 3 of 07-25-24 09:49 PM) Link | #6885
Heh, that selection is great.
(つ^•w•^)つ Gimme!!!
I promise not to tell you, even though with me, it's right under your nose...
(not really, under your nose is your mouth -w-)

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i love pinkpantheress -v-
sleepy today, it's the same tomorrow.
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go to https://pict.chat (sometimes i'm there)
https://dontasktoask.com
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RakiSama
Posted on 07-25-24 09:50 PM Link | #6886
(э^•w•^)э

my attempt to copy lol
it so hard lol on 2Ds

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kikilxve
Posted on 07-25-24 09:53 PM Link | #6888
I forget you're on the 2DS sometimes. And I think you're a fast typer.

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i love pinkpantheress -v-
sleepy today, it's the same tomorrow.
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go to https://pict.chat (sometimes i'm there)
https://dontasktoask.com
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RakiSama
Posted on 07-26-24 09:19 PM Link | #6909
Ah what to say what to say
so i been playing roblox again honestly i might just get 30K robux buy The korblox and get a bunch of outfits i never pay for in game stuff tbh only if i wanna

but imma check robux prices agaim idk if they gone up lol
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been doing the ice thingy on my face and it been more clear then before or maybe i just stopped picking at everything 0-o


Minecraft! planning to make a world for a group (cult) :^

daily know about me!

did you know I love pasta on pizza

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kikilxve
Posted on 07-26-24 09:23 PM Link | #6911
Hadn't heard anyone say pasta on pizza, lol. I won't judge, I used to eat tiles that came out

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i love pinkpantheress -v-
sleepy today, it's the same tomorrow.
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go to https://pict.chat (sometimes i'm there)
https://dontasktoask.com
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RakiSama
Posted on 07-27-24 09:25 PM (rev. 2 of 07-27-24 09:31 PM) Link | #6918
I need to vent abit
im getting really bored and staying on a consol i repeat shit cause it all i can do
i never really got how people just can stay on phones or any devices for hours on end

i just wanna do stuff! go out have fun, i technically grew up with the internet and i guess the way i was brought it made me like that and then seeing younger kids just brain rotting away kinda makes me sad
like where did we go wrong? i wish i could live before this sh#t

i wanna make friends but i just dont care
i know im a sociopath but it weird i enjoy moments that i really do enjoy but once that feelings over im like so what? i dont care

even wen making someone happy bc their sad, i doing it for real but then after the moment im just gone, a blank slate
just nothingness i dont feel like it real and i want it to but i just cant get my mind to it
i understand just.... i feel like everything fake
my mind fake
my body fake and the world twisting around or throwing things at me makin everything worse
i do care i honestly do but it let wen you eat your favourite food as a kid but wen your older it doesn't taste the same but you try over and over again just to get that sweet happiness and if it not constently giving you happiness you fade back again over and over like drugs

or maybe im bored and waise (even though im not wise or smart but i do come up with some really weird things im like wtf i just say? i can think that?!)


daily know about me
did you know i probably have depersonalization (even it auto corrects it for me 0-o)


im so tired i miss spelled aloooot

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kikilxve
Posted on 07-28-24 03:11 AM (rev. 3 of 07-28-24 03:13 AM) Link | #6920
Shouldn't feel that fake. At that point, it sounds like you think you're in another body that wasn't supposed to be yours. Come on, if you make someone happy, imagine that they'll remember you their whole life. If you keep thinking like that, heck, maybe you'll eventually get depressed! Maybe you could find new things to get you happy, y'know. That's why I've been hating this long school break. I can't talk to my friends, and you're so helpful when I just want to talk to someone. That makes me happy.
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i love pinkpantheress -v-
sleepy today, it's the same tomorrow.
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go to https://pict.chat (sometimes i'm there)
https://dontasktoask.com
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RakiSama
Posted on 07-29-24 08:50 PM Link | #6926
Sorry for not uploading anything yesterday i was really tired and wanted some sleep
since i do come on here almost midnight and since i have insomnia since i was born (it not as bad in the past bc i would get 1-2 hours of sleep or none at all)
i rarely do all nighters but if it in a different place instead of my home i be up for days but since i notice wen im in my room on my bed im bored and i get tired
but wen i went to a sleep over at my next-door naighbors house (cant spell) i be up till 4-5 am in the morning i only decide to sleep bc i realize i might get in trouble but if i wanted to i stay up all night and maybe tne next day or so.


but back to my own self bedroom it hard i get to bed at like 9 almost 10 i get off at almost 11 or half 10
how long it takes me to sleep very long especially since i have a very imaginary mind so i can see imaginary and make up scenes in my head as i fall alsep or in mid way sleeping my brain makes up dreams while im half asleep but i know i just enjoying what i was feeling and seeing
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this is now about dreams lol
i bet someone reading will find this intresing

i can feel everything in my dreams and i hate the pain mainly due to my dreams being very action religious and mostly being murdered or chased by some demon maybe even a test experment for the government (idk why i always see men in black...not referencing the movies at all
their just there because i have powers in my dreams 0-o)

the pain over the years has gotten worse i tell you how it feels now

in a dream i scraped my knee on a wall as i try get down, kt was high as a house, it was down to a abandon acade/toy store

also my dreams are very limenal how you spell it? like back rooms feel yk

but their people and weird shadow demons

and wen i scraped my knee i woke up first thing to my mind was grab my knee since it was hurting like hell, i looked at my knee bc i though i really did hurt my knee but nothing

it been getting worse where if i get hit in certain nerves i wake up literary paralysed

im scared that if my dreams feel this real it might intersep my reality if so i could get scars or worse

i know it sounds insane but it make me wonder after all
scientist says you physically cant feel pain in dreams

sooo what the F is wrong with me?
how im i doing this?
i know a few people who can feel pain but not to what im feeling

i remember getting stab in my right lower abdomen in a dream and waking up my hands clenching where i got stab

i was actually crying from waking up from a dream i felt pain in

i never wake up crying i just be like wtf happened but i was actually scared for my life after waking up.

i was crying in pain it really felt i got stab and in my dream i as i was running i realized oh sh#t
this is serious i might actually die

i top that as the most painful thing i ever experience from a dream and in real life!

i just want answers honestly
i hope i never have to wake up to real scars from dreams and if so
good bye friends and family and hello the government XD

hypothetical speaking
0-o


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